i wish you love....

why is it so hard for a person to tell how he/she feels bout a person?? i wonder why... we have to know that at times, if we didnt express ourselves fully, we'll miss a lot of good moments...

we should spread happiness. instead of thinking someone looks gorgeous, why not just say: hey...you look gorgeous today!! keep it up!! share the good feeling with the person. that was what leng taught me.yeah, why not? to say a sentence like that doesnt need much effort and you wont lose anything....

why saying i love you to someone is so difficult? i love you mum, dad, sis, friends.... it's so easy.... giving hugs to family and friends is so a very easy and happy thing to do. why wait? why procrastinate? sometimes, bad things happen and you regret you didnt express your love to someone you love so much.

telling someone i love you in a relationship between a male and a female, needs courage. of course you'll feel shy. why need courage?? i guess mainly it's bcz we're afraid that we'll be rejected... yeah well, we'll feel ashamed bcz we're rejected.. but think of it another way, a brighter side, we manage to tell someone we love he/she. we spread our love... and im sure the person who reject us will feel happy and the both can still share some friendship love... right??

in another situation.... what if the person you love loves you? and he/she is waiting for you to open up yr mouth to say i love you, d'you mind to continue yr journey of life with me?? so, if you didnt buck up yrself and open yr mouth to express.... sorry, you missed the chance...

so, why not change and train ourselves to be more expressive?? dont only listen to music, feel the music and learn to be music...*we can easily feel the expressions in music*



i wish you love, it's a title of a vy vy sweet song
~renee~

Miss you lots, kim!!!!!!

Kim, Me and Leng during school days.... camwhoring instead of studying!!!

Having fun in kayelle!!! Candy house! :) :)

at midvalley's baskin robin! we had mint choc and strawberry ice-creams!!!

Kim and me in the genting's cable car... look how cute she is. :)

Kim and Me (most recent) girl, look how much we've grown....*sigh* i love you.

My throat's killing me again! I cant sleep with the pain, so i stay up. while listening to the radio, memories of my high school days emerged. so, i switched on my pc and looked back at those photos and video clips of my friends and me....

Though what i remember most is that we just flipped our books and studied alot, spent much time in the library reading Seventeen (everybody was 'prey-ing' on this magazine so you have to act fast to get it),searching for revision books or novels, etc.etc.... i still remember that we spent some fun time together. making fun of teachers and each other, shouted, curi-curi makan kacang putih during boring lessons, stood together as a class to defence ourselves and all that. we sang out loud in class too!! and that was sooo fun!!! in words, we, 5s1 was not what typical 5s1. (there was not much of nerds in our class just fun-makers)

but what i really appreciate and enjoy is that i have a bunch of sincere friends and among them, one stands out. she's really my best friend ever. not only understanding, protective, caring, noisy, quite a big bully at times, volcanic temper too, we never never never quarell (though there would be disagreements at times, we still got along). i can share my deepest secret with her. owwwhh....i just love her!!!!!! (kim, you should be happy now, i praised you alot!!!! heehehe)

she would give the best advice to me. looking back at those photos, i really really thank god that we took those photos together. and thank god that i found you kim. apprecite the time we spent together:

• we would see each other right in the very early morning everyday at school.


• went to the loo together (well, we did went into the same loo together! :p )


• would go anyway together, including ponteng class..(ehehee)


• she sneaked me into the catering club area during sports day at stadium cz there was the only part that supplied fresh cool air and food!!!


• we spent every mondays and wednesdays after school period together.


• we shared food and drinks. not only that, we shared thoughts.


• recess time was always a heaven for us.we ate one whole mooncake and enjoyed the clouds instead of the moon together!!! fighting for the egg yolks, haha.


• sneaked to physics lab and got mr. cheong helping us to ponteng moral class! (we studied inside, so, we were not actually ponteng...heheeh)


• introduced youtube to those teachers! so that they can get to watch ballet videos and others evry now and then without flying to europe to watch one. how kind! perasan pulak!


• we sang 'sway' together during our school's dinner night.


• had video clips together.


• had a half back-packing trip together in s'pore, so fun... and i miss that.


• shared each others relationship secrets together. (kim, it's now safe enough to announce you and chuah as bf and gf :p)


• pronounced ourselves as shopaholic queens etc. etc. etc...


• of course, we ate ice creams together....how could i forget that!!!!

of course, besides her, leng, nicole, steph, meishen im also glad that i found you girls... really glad. dont misund here, you girls are always my good friends... i love you girls too. now that kim had gone to s'pore, i missssss her alot alot alot..... lots of thoughts to share but kinda difficult now. luckinly, i've got leng!!! haha. (attention leng, you're not a substitute of her)

love and best wishes to you girls!!!! we'll fight for our future till the end!! ( leng, we'll search for a goody goody husband and have a nice happy family ya...shhh... ;) hehehe... )

In the midst of choosing ....

When the nice and warm sun shines peered through my windows and left traces on my blanket, i know it's a brand new day for me. A question still holding on tightly with my brain nerves..."should i just give up or believe in it and keep holding on?" sometimes things aren't so easy for us to just forget about it. the more you want to forget, the more it clings in your mind. and i hate that kind of feeling.....

Life's full of option. choose a path that's full of footsteps or the one with none. every path has its own adventure and beauty. anything that troubles, and breaks you down, just hold on. that's what i always remember. but, i also make a lot of procrastination while choosing.

*sigh* i love mariah carey's through the rain.

When you get caught in the rain

With nowhere to run

When you’re distraught

And in pain without anyone

And you feel so far away

That you just can't find you way home

you can get there alone

it's okay

once you say

I can make it through the rain

I can stand up once again

On my own and I know

That I’m strong enough to mend

And every time I feel afraid

I hold tighter to my faith

And I live one more day

And I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down

Don’t you dare give in

You will arise safe and sound

So keep pressing on steadfastly

And you’ll find what you need to prevail

Once you say

I can make it through the rain

I can stand up once again

On my own and I know

That I’m strong enough to mend

And every time I feel afraid

I hold tighter to my faith

And I live one more day

And I make it through the rain

And when the wind blows

And shadows grow close

Don’t be afraid

There’s nothing you can’t face

And should they tell you

You’ll never pull through

Don’t hesitate

Stand tall and say

Yeah yeah yeahhhh

I can make it through the rain

I can stand up once again

On my own and I know

That I’m strong enough to mend

And every time I feel afraid

I hold tighter to my faith

And I live one more day

And I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain

Can stand up once again

And I'll live one more day, and I can make it through the rain

Oh yes, you can

You’re gonna make it through the rain.

So nice listening to it. hey, why not i get myself a mint choc ice-cream??!! cheers, just live life to the fullest, no matter what it is, i just want to keep my spirits high and enjoy life!