d'you know how to show yr appreciation??

was having a 'girls' conversation with my sis the other day. we were sitting side by side together and leaning near to each other. both had lots of things to tell in our hearts.


my sis was having a lil' 'complications' in her seven-year-long courtship. it's a long one, just like everyone knows, it's a very good one as everyone thinks, but, it's a challenging one also. challenging as in they went through a lot of hard times together, misunderstandings and arguments together.


this time, my sis had no tears with this problem occurred in her courtship. this is very weird for a couple, my sis told me. 'i know im acting abnormally this time.', she told me, in a slow tone. yes...i could see that she's fed-up this time. this lil complication may seemed small, but it reflects a big problem that is not fix by one party, my sis' boyfriend. chances given and taken, outcome still the same, so compromising takes place and patience takes place., in the end, fed-up gradually takes place.


i know things between them. and i know that her boyfriend is good at everything, loyalty the best, but one thing, one important element missing in him, appreciation. we dont know what's in his mind about appreciation. maybe there is appreciation, but no actions and words. that's why, we ballerinas put a strong accent in expressions. if you dont show, how are the people going to know what you're dancing?! this is the same for normal life.


my sis thought that he's from a chinese school, so maybe expressing is kinda hard for him. but, this is wrong. no matter which school you're from, we must learn how to express. every lil' thing that my sis do, she's taking him into account. and she appreciates him. she's always a sweet gal. kind. thoughtful. caring. not annoying. lovable. she's a sweet gal giving all her love, trust and appreciation to her loved one, hoping that her three elements will also be in him and hoping him to show.


she told me that when they were out together to have dinner that night, there was no conversation between them. not a sentence. it was like both person sitting near to each other, but bothe hearts were far away from each other. during our trip to kl, there was no text messages and phone call telling her to be careful and take care or ask what's she doing to show his concerns and love. all along, these lil' things were given a reason to happen by my sis(including me). thought that, guys are like that, it's enough to know that they love us, they are not as detailed as gals. but....it's wrong.


"should i give him another chance?' my sis asked. "yes." i said, knowing deep inside that, everyone deserves chances when we can afford to give them. and i always like to see fruitful courtships, with challenges in it. chances are given but, this time, it should be in a different way. not as easy as before. i hope that he'll 'succeed in this chance by showing his appreciation to my sis. somehow, it makes me want to ask him 'd'you know how to show yr appreciation to someone? the ways of doing it? we all know that you're sincere and loving and loyal. pls kindly show them all out. come on!!!!'

goodness....why ppl dont show how they feel?? just tell and show! it's crucial to everyone. my sis needs it, i need it, my best friend need it, we all need it.


renee

a special feeling...

i was looking out of the bus window yesterday on a trip with all the junior ballerinas and my sis. it was drizzling outside. and those lil' girls were crowding at my seat, cause one of my junior, viv, was helping them to tie their hair. everyone around me was so excited- the girls, my sis and even the people on the streets.


it always give me a special and intimate feeling while everybody around me is busy with their work or is busy 'in' their minds and i'm watching and observing... a very nice feeling.... this feeling eluded again while i was listening to the music, chris brown-with you and watching the girls chatting, getting excited, laughing and the people on the streets rushing, hugging each other on a rainy day, lovers holding hands enjoying their moments of love, waiting for someone..... somehow it made me feel that: this is life! some people may be suffering, some may be enjoying, some may be busy with their own stuff, some may be appreciating every moments in their life, some may be wasting it away, some may be too busy with their work until they forget their loved ones, some may be missing the others.....


things happen all the time, movements and activities keep on going, keep on going. people keep on growing. feelings keep on coming. pieces of moments of our life may not be all perfect and happy, but i know that they'll be complete and perfect if we know how to put them into different perspective and see and appreciate them always. while people on the streets were busy, while the girls were chatting and laughing out loud, and while lil' girls kept on asking me silly and cute questions, i know that i was feeling the sweetness of life at that moment. i just want to smile and keep on smiling. deep inside i felt so nice and 'lovely' missing my family and special someone. though missing people is kinda torturing at times especially when you're far away from them, i'll make those missings beautiful and perfect and take them as a blessing of life. cause not everyone has the chance to miss somebody! :)


i had lotsa calm thoughts in my mind, lotsa missings going on in my heart, lotsa silly questions to answer, lotsa beautiful music in my ears, and lotsa sweet tender moments going on in my life at that moment, and i was happy and calm. and that was perfect enough for me.


love every moment of my life
renee